If somebody came forward and was willing to fund the attempt he'd most certainly try it. But there's no 100% guarantee it would work. It would be absolutely tragic if you wait for nine months and then have it fail. I looked him right in the eye and said if we can find a way of doing it, it will not fail! So I'm asking if you know any doctor that does these kind of things that would pay for all the tests and things. Mr. Polley would prefer a woman. He wouldn't want a man fooling around with that! If you could find somebody, well, I don't have to tell you how happy I would be. They wouldn't really be able to tell if it would work until the baby would be coming. But everybody wants me to keep trying. Well, this is the way I can try. It's a possibility of how I can survive. A scary possibility, but still a possibility! So if you know anybody tell them about it. It would make a lot of people happy if Mr. & Mrs. Polley had a little girl of their own, even if the mother was really somebody else.
Speaking of Mr. Polley I was so angry yesterday every time he bumped up into the counter and wanted to cry. I could feel every bit of his pain. The ankle's doing fairly well, but his stomach is terrible. And something else is happening that really upsets Mrs. that I wish so much you could help with. I can't say what I want to say about the one that did it. Mr. Polley says that would get us in trouble, but I wish someone would tell her she has an enemy that really, really hates her and is looking for an opportunity. Ooh, I am so mad! I am so very, very mad!
Oh, there's one other thing, well two, actually, and Mr. Polley says I gotta stop saying Oh. That can get as irritating as what Caroline Kennedy was doing. Anyway, there's a controversy rather or not the photographs of my bones should be shown, if they should be sold. I would not object to this at all if the profits went to childrens' charities. This would also raise power for me, and help those that are protecting me do so. I want to become stronger, I want to become a lot stronger. And the more people pray for me the stronger I get.
Then there is the matter of my mother going to my funeral. I would really prefer that she be allowed to. It will give me an opportunity to touch her in a power situation and make sure I have good contact with her. If afterwards you have delivered my letter to my grandmother and she knows how doomed she is it may help us. Has my letter reached you yet? Have you read it? I really wish you would. I am waiting to hear the news reports that you have gone to Florida and given it to my grandmother and asked her to follow my wishes, that you believe this message came from God. I think there was something else, but I can't remember, so much coming at me and I'm still so very, very angry! Mr. Polley says I've got to learn to control that, that I'm far more effective when I can act rationally. But sometimes when someone you love is in pain it's very, very difficult to act rationally. You just want to hurt those that are hurting them. It might not be right, but that's what you want.